how I plan to get healthier (and blog about it)

Don't get me wrong, I'm a very confident girl. It took a lot to build up that confidence but I'm all good now. I love my body. I love my big thighs and my soft belly and my skinny arms and my fat ass. But I just feel like getting healthier out of boredom tbh. I just really want to be stronger and have more endurance.

So I'm trying to create my own workout plan. I'm avoiding dieting because I struggled with anorexia in the past and it started with dieting. So I don't plan to count calories or anything like that. I can just try to lay off the crap, but I'm gonna eat whatever I want when it comes down to it.

AREAS I WANT TO BUILD MUSCLE IN: 

• legs/booty
• abs
• arms

SEMI-RELATED FITNESS TYPE GOALS:

• run an entire 5k (no walking!)
• be able to do 30 proper pushups
• eventually build the leg muscle up to be able to do Cassey Ho's 1,000 squats challenge
• be able to do 5 pull-ups
• build up flexibility to be able to do the splits(??? not sure)

HOW I MIGHT ACHIEVE THAT (in order) :

• run more often! I don't think I'll be running much because of school. I have to keep my shoes at school for PE. But over the summer, I'll take my shoes home and start running in either the mornings or the evenings to build endurance.
• simply do more push-ups. maybe do one of those month long push-up challenges
• I'm thinking that I could just go over that video every couple of days and just take it for as long as I can go and try to gradually build up every time I do it.
• try to build arm strength. I don't have a bar to use often but I can follow certain exercises and use the bar when I see one. 
• stretch daily 

University of high test scores, high grades, and an impossible amt. of extracurriculars (AKA USC)

My freshman english teacher is making her classes write this essay on college and our future life plans and I'm writing about the University of Southern California. I had heard about it from the youtuber catherine MyPreppyStyle. She says so many good things about it. 

I love USC. I love the location, the weather, the vibe, the classes, everything.

And I REALLY want to go there. 

But it'll be so difficult to get in! I mean the acceptance rate is 17%!

Sometimes I have a lot of hope because I'm a good student and I'm in the marching band and in the percussion ensemble. I have all a's, shouldn't that be enough? Apparently not. 

This summer I plan to start volunteering at the library because I love that library and it's close to my house. I think and hope that it'll really make USC (and other colleges of my choice) want to accept me.

I'm just nervous that it won't. I don't want to look back on my four years of high school and wish I'd done more. I don't want to limit my future self. 

I wanted to do cross country but it's in the fall, which is when marching season is. I just won't have the time considering I'm taking two of the school's hardest APs and all of the other above-level classes. I don't think I've stretched myself too thin yet, but if I do cross country I will have. 

but then again, schools love athletes. 

I don't know what to do.

But I hope if I work my ass off and express that I genuinely love USC that they'll accept me.

I hope.

--SOLITAIRE

New blog? I guesss..

The other day, I was watching Ask Me Anything on Netflix. In that movie there is a teenage girl who creates a blog during her gap year in between high school and college. She basically used the blog to document her life and organize her thoughts, and I think that's a good idea for me to do. I really need to get my life together tbh. I SEEM like I'm doing great when in reality I'm getting 5 hours of sleep a night and eating fried rice for breakfast. I'm going to use this blog as a sort of journal, documenting what I feel, ideas I have, etc. I'm using an anonymous profile (I hope! I don't know how this website works really.) so I won't be scared to really say what I want. I'm excited.

-- SOLITAIRE