So many girls (some boys too, but many more girls) have these horrible views of their body and I really don't understand why all this is necessary(???) I was anorexic for a year or two in middle school. That scares me because that is such a young age to start having body image issues. I would only eat under 400 calories a day and I would follow those dumb monthly calorie limit challenges. It was horrible. So recently I started thinking about what happened and what caused me to feel that way. I came to the conclusion that I felt that way for a few reasons. The obvious reason is the media. In the movies I would see, half the time they portrayed the 12/13 year old girl as ugly or gross and the other half they would use someone older and much more beautiful to play that role. The first one is damaging because I realized that that was how I was viewed to people of other ages, and I wanted to get less chubby, have clearer skin, all of that so I could look older. The second one might have been even more so because of the fact that I thought that I was supposed to look like those beautiful girls on tv. Why couldn't they just have the pre-teen girl be accurately displayed without putting us down? Another idea that caused this was the fact that I was comparing myself to other girls. I had several crushes on different boys and every time I liked someone, they would always like another girl. Before I had gotten involved romantically, I had loved the girl. But as soon as I knew that the boy I liked liked her, I would start to look up things like, "Why does he like her and not me?" and the search results would be seventeen articles titled HOW TO GET THE GUY. The articles would always mention something about looking better or more beautiful, and I would try to imagine how I could look better. My answer was to lose some weight. Why didn't the articles say, "better yourself, find a passion so you'll be more interesting," or even, "don't change for a boy, he'll come around if it's meant to be." The last reason I could think of was that I hadn't been taught how to love myself. My mom would always ask if I liked her outfit or if I thought she looked beautiful or skinny. She radiated insecurity. If you want your child to be confident, you have to try to be confident or at least fake it around then. I didn't realize that it was a thing to love yourself. Ever since it has been trending to be confident, to be happy, to be content with who you are, I have been so much more confident and happy and content with myself. I just had to tell myself, "Wow, I look so beautiful. I am a goddess and I radiate beauty and intelligence and I don't need to be told that because I know it already." I didn't believe myself at first, but then gradually I started to become what I said I was. I am beautiful. I am intelligent. I am strong. I am lovable. You can't be your own worst enemy.
--SOLITAIRE
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